Thursday, July 23, 2009

人生的奥妙

人生,总是那么的复杂
往往在想要开心时就会有新的挑战迎向你
一波又一波的挑战,何时才会结束呢?
就在即将踏入人生另一个阶层时,
更多的想法又再涌向我脑海中。
有时自己会在想:“是我想多了吗?还是这是必经之过程?”

人们说有想法就会有动力
但为什么我却没什么动力呢?
头脑中想要的,想做的,又是否都有在执行着呢?
这问题我就怎么也想不通

学业,感情,友情,还有即将到来的事业
那么多方面的考量,我做到了吗?
我的梦想,真的能实现吗?
我的愿望,又能达成吗?

最近开始发现自己原来那么不会控制情绪
很多事情也变得没那么得心应手
在我深思着某个方面时,很多时候同时忽略了其他方面

学业也仿佛是我最忽略的那一方面了
当然最复杂的感情世界也不易面对
那么多年的感情了,虽然说不应有问题
但有时我真的忽略它了,对吗?

对不起!
当所有方面的问题都以其纳入我的考虑范围时
忽略某方面也在所难免吧?

了解我的人或许知道我最关心最在意的是什么
当然多数的人都不会察觉
我也不否认自己个性内向
有时就是因为不敢,还有不想
所以搞到身边的人都误会了

我很努力做个全新的我
做个特出的我
做个让人顺眼的自己
但,我做到了吗?

现时也不知自己到底是平凡还是特出
或是怪异呢?
有些人会认为很难和我相处
我真是那样么?

所有所有的一切
也都只不过为了一个目的 - 开心
不论学业也好,事业也好,感情也好
大家努力的,付出的,不过是要换来快乐吗
为了开心,为了快乐,
人生就出现了那么多的色彩,真的好奥妙!

照我说,开心的定义会跟着人们的成长而改变
我觉得开心,你未必觉得
我觉得应该做的,你也未必觉得
你想要的,我未必能给你
你想给的,却又未必是我所想要得到的

人类就是那么奇怪
每一分每一秒都在变化着
所以说当某个人说他绝对了解某个人时
那是不可能的
因为人是永远不会了解自己的
更何况是第二或第三者呢?

虽然如此,生活却还是要过
而且要尽能力过得开心
有时觉得自己真的好傻
有得开心时却又尝试从另一方面想
就这样一个接一个问题慢慢想
慢慢的,我的字典里“开心"这词已经开始模糊了

醒醒吧!
别再苦了自己
再大的烦恼,再多的问题
总有解决方法的
坚强点吧
为了身边关心你的人
振作点吧

加油!!!

Sunday, July 19, 2009

How's BD CeleBration @ YuAn SteamBoat

18th July 2009 - Saturday

Activities : Sg Long -> The Mines -> KL -> Kota Damansara -> Subang -> Sunway -> Sg Long

A very nice weekend spent happily with some buddies and also with some nice activities.

好一段日子没和中学的死党出门了。恰逢刚好是卓豪的生日,接到阿晋的电话后便匆忙赶下KL和他会面。回家接他女友后,就赶紧前往SJMC找卓豪啰!过后便一同到Sunway Pyramid走走逛逛咯。难得在一起,晚餐便到“缘 生火锅”去。寿星公也很开心与我们一同过。吃饱饭后还带了蛋糕与阿豪的父亲一同唱生日歌吹蜡烛。很感动看到他父亲开心地为他唱歌,还很高兴的祝福他。亲情的珍贵,就在此时统统表示出来了。从他父亲口中可感觉到一个孝顺儿子的好,还有一个慈祥父亲对儿子的骄傲。真的好感动,也让我感触良多。 过后便和阿晋欣妮回KD咯。本来他们是留我们过夜的,但总是觉得自己家是最温暖的,哈哈!所以脸皮厚厚的要求他载我们回咯。回之前还与他朋友喝茶咯。丰富的一个美丽周末就这样过了,哈哈。


Mill Wheel Ice Cafe @ Sunway Pyramid

"Yuan" Steamboat....hehe...

the closet couple.....walk through all the hardships in relationships together....
"0331 & 0405"

jing, how(bd boy) n me....

bd boy making his wishes o.....haha...


a very nice bd celebration with frens.....happy birthday chok how...

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Sg Gabai Waterfall

15th July 2009 - Wednesday

Activities : Sg Gabai Waterfall @ Ulu Langat

Today is really an good day with nice weather. Finally it's not as hot as days before. and fortunately today got only one morning class. after my break+lunch, its just around 11am.

after 2 hour, i went for lunch with housemate at McDonald's again. haha. our's house norm, one week average got one meal with uncle mc donald. haha.

after that, due to the gd weather, we got an idea to go for waterfall. after delay for some time, finally we depart at around 4pm.

all the way to the waterfall is just like kampung road, got a feel of go back to my origin place. haha. around half an hour drive, finally we reach.

i was so surprising that selangor still got such kampung place, it's so nice n enjoying.

long time din go waterfall edi. even tough is having busy times, but go for some outing is also a gd kind of de-stress activity ma. haha. (a lot of excuses o??)

btw, i'm the kind of person who like try new thgs so much. n no doubt i like travel a lots. i enjoy been to so many different place with different feeling with different ppl. it's so nice and enjoyable. haha...dun u all think so?? haha...

k la, without wasting time, faster share some pic lo...hehe....it's good for ppl who like travel to kampung places which hardly find at kl area, but in fact it is also not too far driving from kl. haha. sounds a bit complicated o??? haha...



enjoyed with the water splash on my body....hehe...

the 3 half-naked guys.....haha....


how come i so dark among others de???? wuwuwuwu....

hehe.....dinner after the waterfall trip.....

Monday, July 13, 2009

FloweRs MeAn & SyMBoLiZes

Here is some guide especially for guys who may not know about the flowers mean and symbolizes. For me i alwaz find it difficult to decide which flower for which situation. Now find this interesting and might useful if guys were have to buy some flowers for their love....so just share it out la....hehe....

Baby’s Breath
Meaning : Innocence
Best For : Filler in bouquets, corsages, and boutonnieres
Scent : None

Calla Lily
Meaning : Magnificent beauty
Best For : Bouquets and arrangements
Scent : Lightly fragrant

Carnation
Meaning : Pink represents boldness, red symbolizes love, and white indicates talent
Best For : Bouquets, boutonnieres, and arrangements
Scent : Very light fragrance or none at all, depending on variety

Chrysanthemum
Meaning : Wealth, abundance, truth but considered bad luck for a Chinese wedding
Best For : Bouquets and arrangements
Scent : None

Freesia
Meaning : Innocence
Best For : Bouquets
Scent : Very fragrant

Gardenia
Meaning : Purity, joy
Best For : Bouquets and boutonnieres
Scent : Very fragrant

Lily
Meaning : Majesty, truth, honor
Best For : Bouquets and arrangements
Scent : Fragrant

Orchid
Meaning : Love, beauty
Best For : Bouquets, corsages, and boutonnieres
Scent : Varies

Rose
Meaning : Love, joy, beauty
Best For : Bouquets, corsages, boutonnieres, and arrangements
Scent : Lightly fragrant to very fragrant, depending on variety

Tulip

Meaning : Love, passion
Best For : Arrangements and bouquets
Scent : None

p/s: sources from Marry Me! magazine..

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Entrepreneurship Expo & KL Wedding Fair ~~~ Nice day!!!

11 July 2009 (Saturday) ~~~~ A very interesting day!!!!

Since last few weeks i had already learn about the entrepreneurship expo which will be held at Mid Valley from SME magazine. Finally the day is coming. Maybe for some ppl the expo will be so bored....but i still learn somethg from there.

"Trade Visitor".....haha.....

ID given and also the show guide....

Get to know some excellent SME company and also did do some sharing with some new frens lo. Especially with a guy from Eumora company, had a nice sharing with him. At the same time, i started to wondering about my future. This is also one of the reason why i'm attending the expo. Another thing that cheer me up is getting a few issues of my favourite magazine "SME". hehe^.^

After walk around for more than 1 hour, i get out from the place for some food. hehe. Sushi King again. manage to eat 10 plates of sushi together with my dear gf. After tat, walk around at mid valley n before leave, we go into the expo again. haha. But this time we did attend another fair, which is the "Wedding Fair". Since it is free admission and since we edi there, my gf suggest to just go in n look around lo. Ok deal, we go into the venue.

The first thg we receive at the entrance is a lucky draw form. The prizes i think is somethg like honeymoon travel package. I was looking at the ladies who give me the form n wondering should i fill it. Aiya, it should be no age limit de gua, so i just take n fill lo. The form's required answer really make me STUNT!!!! wth, the first column edi ask me to fill in the "groom's name". ok nvm, i write my name lo. the next part ask the age pula, then sure i fill in the actual age lo. n u know next part ask wat??? haha....it ask about profession...sei lo....a lady who serve at the counter was looking at me while i filling the form. I was so shy n just take the paper away n fill it at another corner without seeing by her. haha.. i was so shy to fill in "Student". haha....ok, this is not the worst part....

Ladies n gentleman, u guess wat's the next column asking for??? haha......

it ask about the "brides name"........wtf, how am i going to fill in this column ar??? even tough i got a close gf n our relationship consider stable, but bride's name wor, really wan like tat meh? ok lo....no choice lo....i just fill in my gf's name n particulars lo....(hopefully i wont get the prize la, haha) it will be so shy if me n my gf's name announce as the winner of the prize. I sure other couple will gek sei n wanna kill us. A couple who attending just for fun but win the prize at the end...hahaha......anyway, the result will come out around august i think. The next thg we get is some products from NIVEA. it's free!! wah, get so many thgs without pay even a single cent. haha.....

the free gifts: left 2 for guys n the rest r for gals lo....

after that, we go in to visit lo. we visited 2 booth. 1 is a company from taiwan who actually ask about our opinion regarding taking photo at taiwan. the next one is from Universal Studio. A kind lady was introduce to us for a long time. Wat surpising me n make me stunt is when she ask me a question : " U two planning to marry this year or next year ar?" .......................(speechless)...........i was stunt there for a few second after heard this ques. But after we tell our age, the lady still dun let us go. She still insist to explain the offer package to us. Nvm lo, just listen as a knowledge lo. haha.. for future planning ma....

Universal Studio

Marry Me!!!
a free magazine with lots of information regarding marriage planning....hehe....^.^

I was so pity the lady when i reject her at last. She spent around 1 hour to show me all the samples and explain so details regarding the package. She even offer me tat i can actually sign up on the spot n it will only due after 5 yrs. tat means within 5 yr i can enjoy the package anytime, provided i pay some deposit to book for a seat. haha....But seriously it is so worth to get it...RM3599 but get many many many extra thgs compare to normal package. Now at least i know wat money need to spend when i'm marry. haha...

I also been given some magazine n books about wedding planning lo. wat a nice trip. haha...but until now i still cant forget the face of the lady and also the way she ask me the question. btw, my face looks so old meh? or Malaysian ppl is so open for young age marriage ar???? haha......@##$%^&*

p/s: i forgotten to bring camera out for the day....all these pics were taken at home lo...haha..

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

如果有一天我們再見面時間會不會... 倒退一點...?

自從高二那年...你轉學過來我們不久就成為班上同學公認的一對。
但那時候,你我都覺得那根本是不可能的事。我們連正眼看一下對方都不願意呢!卻也不能怪同學造謠生事,因為... 我們竟然能那麼剛好的每天在同一時間踏入教室... 也一直都是班上成績最好的... 有著相同的興趣...
嗜好收到女生的情書,是你習以為常的事,也許因為你功課好、對人也客氣,但我的心裡一直認為不過就是你長的稍微帥一點罷了,也一直很不屑那些寫信給你的女生,暗地裡罵她們花痴,這又使得班上的同學以為我在吃醋,我心裡想:『我怎麼這麼倒楣呀?
總覺得你是在欺負我,雖然你不會像一些下流的男生一樣一直開女生玩笑,但是.... 你卻讓我從全班第一名,甚至全校... 變成了第二... 每一次看到成績單上第一名--周信宏,第二名--黃嘉茹,我備感灰心,更令我生氣的是... 當我熬夜苦讀了好幾天最後終於在期末考贏了你,你卻沒有一點難過的表情... 反而用比平常更高興的口氣說:「嘉茹!你進步了耶」
我贏了你... 但我卻一點也不高興...
當我受了委屈... 我總習慣開了電腦... 撥號連線到我最常上的聊天室
找我的網友---ARTHUR
「晚安!還不睡啊?^___^
他總是很準時的在每個晚上的10:30分到來... 他每次跟我說的第一句話就是:「晚安!還不睡啊? ^___^
他是我最信賴的男生,總是在電腦的另一端默默聽我傾訴我的心事,從來沒抱怨過,而且在每次考試前他都會捎來一封電子郵件,要我好好加油。我在想... 他怎麼知道我就要考試了?
更令我驚訝的是... 他連我的生日都知道並寄來他的祝福。
不過... 我沒追問,一方面因為他是這麼的令我信任,另一方面也因為我們的關係就只是朋友吧... 只在電腦上交會的朋友。
六月的某一天... 他遲到了
我等啊等的... 終於盼到了電腦螢幕上出現了一行字...
10:47--ARTHUR--進入聊天室》
我感到有一點生氣... 因為他從不曾遲到這麼的久,當然是賭氣的離開了... 事後我想:為什麼我會這麼生氣?難道我.....
不過他後來在也不敢遲到了!
隔天~~
啊哈! 我們終於不是同時間進教室了
你比我慢了整整五分鐘... 我看得出來... 顯然是你的杵著一支柺杖的左腳導致的
我開玩笑的... 詢問你的腳傷
因為我昨天補完習回家時邊走邊吃沒看路跌倒的啊
你笑一笑... 這樣回答我
我在心裡暗笑你的愚蠢... 嘿嘿
過了不久... 高中的生活結束了
你順利的考上了台大... 因為如此
使得我感到我也考上台大是件悲哀的事
由於我們選了不同的科系
偶而才會見到一兩次面
常常我在想... 我為什麼這般討厭你
以前的那些理由真的是幼稚到了極點
特別在我想起你曾幫過我許多許多的忙時...
今晚... 我又上網等ARTHUR
但我沒等到他... 卻等到了一通電話,我作夢都沒想到那通電話卻是通惡狠狠刺痛我心的利刃,並留下不可抹滅的疤痕
『喂~請問你是黃嘉茹小姐嗎?』電話那頭緊張的說
「嗯... 是啊!請問你有什麼事嗎?」
『你的朋友出了車禍請你過來仁愛醫院一趟好嗎?』
我也沒問是誰便急急的出門了
到了急診室我問護士,到底是哪個朋友
『是一位叫周信宏的先生』
「周信宏?」

後來... 他的家人及父母也到了
我本來想走了... 但是周媽媽卻攔住我
「護士說... 這封信和這個禮物是在信宏他出事的時候仍緊緊抱在懷中才安然無恙的... 而這上面寫著你的名字」
看到這個... 我才猛然想起.......
我用顫抖手... 接過那血跡斑斑的信
輕輕的拆開來...
當我看到第一行..... 我立刻就傻眼了....
晚安!還沒睡啊?^___^
這句話我對你說了兩年啊!不不不... ARTHUR對你說的
是啊... 我就是他,他也就是我...
你可別生氣喔!因為我看到你這麼討厭周信宏
我才不得已化身成為ARTHUR... 才有辦法接近你呀
高二那年... 我一見到你,我就決定要跟你在一起
每天... 我都在你進校門之後才著你進到班上的.... 不是偶然
在你考試贏我的時候,我是真的高興... 替你感到高興啊!
即使你那麼的討厭我... 我其實還是付出全部的心力在保護你在愛你啊!
即使你完全不知道,我還是要做!
你有沒有聽過一句話...
愛的本身不在擁有 就算是交會時短 記憶會超越歲月邊疆
所以你會明白..... 沒有答案
今天我要用周信宏的身分... 一個真正的我對你說:
『我愛你,嘉茹』
今天是妳的生日,附上我第一次送你的禮物
第三次給妳的生日卡...
信宏1999/11/19
「傻瓜....」我淚流不止... 但我不知道為什麼...
『抱歉...』一位護士走過來
『嗯... 請問你們是周先生的家人嗎?』他接著說
『他.... 我們已經盡力了... 對不起』
周媽媽聽了幾乎要昏死過去
我的反應並不激動... 我只是靜靜地站在原地
默默的流淚.... 口中喃喃自語...「他為什麼不早說?」
原來... 他打算給我一個驚喜
親自把禮物交到我的手裡... 才會在冬天的夜裡騎著腳踏車要到我家來
也因他手上拿著東西... 加上馬路上的光線太暗
他才會被一台貨車迎面撞上... 整個人彈射十公尺之遠
後來我拆開禮物...
原來是一些他以前一直想給我的信... 但他不敢... 怕我生氣
這些信加起來總共有四十幾封
當我看到其中的一封我又不禁失聲痛哭了
日期標的是 1997/06/17
嘉茹:
今天補習班十點一下課我就急著要回家上網去找你
過馬路時被一台闖紅燈的機車撞傷了我的腳
但是我得忍著痛... 跑回家去
也許是因為腳痛吧... 我還是遲到了~!
你很生氣... 就先走了...
唉呀~!我那時候應該跑快點的!
對不起... 以後我不會在遲到了!
請你別生氣了喔
信宏
我不生氣....
我真的很想再見你一面.....
雖然我知道再也不可能了......
如果有一天我們再見面... 時間會不會倒退一點.....?